Not always rainbows and sunshine

Since I moved to Holland, there has been nothing but new experiences and fun adventures. I guess that that is basically what you expect when you leave your old world behind and move to another country, school and social life. However, since this blog is about the life as an international student, I think it would be unfair if I would only write about the positive things (although they are in majority). Lately I've been having a feeling that I think everyone get (more or less) after living some time abroad. I've felt that things aren't as fun anymore, as exciting. When I get too much to do I feel trapped in some way, even though I love my life here in The Hague. This feeling has scared me lately, because I honestly don't feel that there is anything wrong with my life here. If I had to go back in time I would do it all over again, without a doubt.

So what is it then, that makes me feel down at times, and restless? Well, after some thinking I have figured that it must be some sort of homesickness, but also that I've reached the point where my The Hague life has become my "ordinary" life, and the one I have in Sweden is now exceptional. I think that sooner or later, wherever in the world you are, you reach this point. It's called the everyday life, and it's here to stay.

However, I believe that there are ways to see it from a positive side. I now know The Hague so well, that I basically have two homes in this world. Not many people have that. Also, I do love living here, and I always feel a lot better when I remind myself that I would feel like this even if I lived in Sweden, but probably more. Holland is still quite unknown and exciting to me, and there is a lot that I haven't discovered yet. Just a simple thing like picking up the Metro newspaper this morning on the tram and realize that I can actually read it can make such a big difference!

Anyway, this post wasn't meant to put people off going abroad, but to give it a more balanced view. Moving abroad is a big, scary and life-changing step, but it is never, ever, something that you will regret.